Was it enough? A job well done?

The past 4 weeks have been intense… I mean exhausting mentally, physically, emotionally… yet through it all I had peace. It’s crazy how 3 different people spoke “a month, a season of a month”… LOL…that season came to fruition last night… thank you Jesus…

I actually got up and went out and walked the bridge, even though it was calling for rain and I got blessed huge!!! My dear sweet friend Cindy was walking the bridge as well, I wanted to sprint to her and grab a hug but was afraid of overwhelming her LOL … it felt like coming home, it felt like freedom… it felt like … like that test was over, I found myself asking “was it a job well done? How did I do Father? Did I pass?” I was grateful the rain held off and I was able to reconnect and do one of my favorite things… bridge church!!! And with Cindy!! To process, unpack and have an nonjudgmental listening ear… Thank you Lord!

I had to run into the grocery and I was drawn to the flowers and I felt led to buy them… so much color, so vibrant.. I did good…this “was”, this IS one of the MANY moments for which I was created!!! When I checked out the two gentlemen commented on the flowers and someone was going to be happy, someone is getting spoiled… “I am” “I AM!!!” It’s been a difficult journey and I am spoiling myself I am making myself happy I am surrounding myself with beauty!!! Yes!!!

This just hit me…. I am taking a moment to honor, appreciate myself… acknowledge, give recognition to the fact I handled the past month with Grace, God given Grace.. God given love, wisdom and discernment.. I was not perfect I fumbled at times I failed, yet I did not wallow there I jumped back up and I carried on. I asked for guidance, Gods guidance and the guidance of the Angels in skin He sent to physically hold me up, give me strength, correction, accountability and love… wow… wow… this last month was hard but WOW but.. but GOD!!! Wow I can’t even wow!!!

I am overwhelmed…

Thank you all of you who walked this out with me… physically and in prayer… I am beyond grateful and blessed… I love you all !! You ARE my tribe❤️